To Noah, Ammon, McKenna and Madison:
I don't know if you will ever truly understand the depth of my love for you until you one day have children of your own, but I do want you to understand that I do, and will ALWAYS love you more than words could ever express. Do not ever let the world, or any person in it make you believe you are not loved, because that is absolutely, unequivocally a lie. I loved you from the moment I first knew you were coming to join our family, even more when I first saw you on the ultrasound screen, even more when I first felt you move inside of me, and even more when I first held you in my arms and saw your beautiful face. My love for you grows stronger with each day, and there is absolutely nothing you could possibly do to make my love for you lessen.
I want you to know how absolutely beautiful you are. Beauty comes in all sizes, shapes and colors, and everyone is beautiful in their own way. Do not define yourself through the world's idea of beauty, or let others define your self-worth. Learn to love yourself for who you are and embrace your imperfections; beauty is not defined by perfection. Nobody is perfect!
I do not labor under the delusion that I will be able to shelter you forever from those who would wish to hurt you or cause you harm, but I do hope that I can build you up to be strong enough not to let those hurtful people affect you.
I want more than anything for you to be happy, to be successful in what ever endeavours you choose to pursue in your life. I want you to dream big, to hold fast to your dreams, and never let anyone tear them from you. If you work hard, and put your sincerest best effort into becoming what you want to be, you can do anything!!
I hope that you always have a positive attitude, that you will look for the good in everything. I hope that you can focus on the good qualities in people, and never allow yourself to be judgmental and unkind. I hope you can find positives in ever situation and realize that your trials can be learning experiences that will help you grow if you allow them to. I hope that you can look for, and appreciate the beauty that is all around you. Remember there is always a rainbow after the storm, and stars in the darkest of nights.
I want you to learn the value of hard work, integrity, honesty, and respect. The world is quickly devaluing these principles, and I want you to know how important they are, whether the world believes so or not. I hope that you learn not to lower your standards, or jeopardize your integrity to follow what is popular or trendy.
I think it is very important for you to know that you WILL make mistakes. Learn from them, learn to forgive yourself and move past them. I hope that no matter what situation you may get yourself into, you always feel comfortable with coming to me, and your father, to talk about it. We are not perfect parents, but we love you, and we are here to help you the best that we can. Please remember that no matter what you do, we will always love you, and there is nothing you can do to lessen that love. I hope that we can always have an open and forgiving relationship with each other.
I have greatly enjoyed watching you grow, learn, master milestones, and develop your personalities, and I very much look forward to watch you continue in these things. Every day I get to hold you, watch you, and call you mine is the most glorious blessing. You are my little miracles, and I thank God everyday that he let me be your Mother.
Love you always and Forever,